A Life in Progress…

(William, Will, me, Augustin & Theogene- my family for 2 weeks) At the beginning of November, I started my Christmas wishlist. This year, I thought Will and I should get a "family" gift. My thought was a Wii. We had talked about it a couple of times but no decision was made. We were going to think about it because I was going to start working part-time and we didn't want to over extend ourselves. Fast forward to two and a half weeks later. Will & I were able to host a couple of boys from the Asante Children's Choir. These boys were loving, entertaining, and wonderful. (I have written about them in previous posts.) After hosting these boys & an adult chaperone for 2 weeks, my life was changed. The weekend the boys left, it was very difficult for me. I did not want them to leave. They did get to come back for one night and stayed with us for that one night. What a glorious night it was. It was nice to have the boys back in my home even if it was for just...

I do not want to forget.... that look in Augustin & Theogene's eyes when they were meeting their host family (me), they had only been in the states for about 2 1/2 weeks at that time. that first snow fall when Augustin was so excited that he initially forgot to put on his shoes before going outside and realizing that snow is cold. that snow touching the skin is like apparently like a "snake bite". the dancing that was happening at all times in the house. Especially when Chris Brown's song "Forever" was on. Michael Jackson was another favorite. Decorating the christmas tree to "Forever" and "Cotton-eyed Joe"- talk about christmas songs. :) The hugs first thing in the morning & when they went to bed. Loved them!!! watching youtube videos with Augustin & Theogene. When they saw themselves they would laugh. The boys were both very ticklish. Just walking by them at times would have them laughing. being called Auntie in the coolest ...

Tonight I am really missing the boys that have touched my heart and have changed my life forever. It is when the house is quiet that I miss them the most. I try no to let the quiet house get to me and I try to distract myself with other things, but it doesn't matter what I do, I miss them terribly. I was able to talk with them for a couple minutes yesterday and that just made my day. It was really good to hear from them & hear the excitement in their voices. It made my day that did not start off well, end on a good note. Thank you William for giving me a little piece of heaven in a phone call.

(Theogene, Auntie, Augustin) Last night "my boys" were back in Spokane for a performance at Glover Middle School. I was beyond excited! As you may have read in a previous post, I have grown to love these boys and the other children in the choir very much. It was so nice to see them. What was even better was that they got to stay at my house again for the one night they were in town. This was the first time that I had hosted children in my home that I did not have a previous relationship with and it was good training for what we will go through doing foster care. Let me tell you, this was a learning experience for me and I learned a lot about myself during this process. I really learned that being a foster parent is not for me. I cannot love and then let go without a lot of pain & sorrow. I have made up my mind that I will only adopt through the foster care system because it is the best and least expensive way that I will become a parent. You see, my husband & I do not...