A Life in Progress…

I finally got through on the radio and am now a Loyal Listener. I am now Loyal Listener #1468. Ken Hopkins was on poetry duty and his poem was pure brilliance! I now get to have lunch at Qdoba Mexican Grill with other Loyal Listeners and Dave, Ken & Molly. Can't wait to have lunch & be a part of the laughs that they have on the radio.

I have been on the job hunt for 2 weeks now. I have signed up on several different job search sites. Since I have signed up on those websites, I have received more spam in my email that I care to have. I have also been getting LOTS of phone calls from unknown phone numbers. I don't pick them up because they have 800, 801, 802, or 888 area codes, I just let them to go to voicemail. No voicemail=no call back! Getting the phone calls and spam email is the most frustrating part of signing up for the job sites. Looking on Craigslist for a job is an adventure as well. There are SO many scams out there right now. Lots of them choose to use the email address that Craigslist will give them. That makes it hard to figure out which jobs are scams & the ones that are not. You can tell that they are scams when they email you back thanking you for your interest in the job. They then ask you to fill out a "formal" application and get your credit report through their site. Requesting ...

This has NOT been a good week. It started off with my father-in-law having to be rushed to the emergency room yesterday. He had a mild heart attack and is having issues with his kidneys. They can't run run the need tests for his heart because of his kidneys. So right now he is in the hospital waiting for his kidneys to start working the way they should. Today, I was asked by my boss to come into his office and close the door. He then told me that it was my last day. The office/business was going in a different direction and that did not include me. Needless to say I was shocked. I do not really understand the reasoning behind my job being terminated. When I asked more questions, I was also told that some agents had complained about me. When I asked for examples, none were given. I am completely confused as to why this has happened. I am still in shock over the whole thing. Right now, I just have to believe that there is something big in the works for me. At least that is my prayer.

I have decided that I need to make some changes in my life. Some of these changes include: Spend more quality time with my husband and be a better wife Spend more time with our family (in-laws, Emily & Jack) Take pride in my home & keep it clean Eat out less and make healthier meals Save more $$ Curb impulse spending. Ask- is it a need or a want? Less caffeine ...AKA: less Dutch Bros and soda More water Exercise more Find an activity that Will and I can enjoy together. These are just a few of the things that I am wanting to change . I figure it is never to late. Although, I am not going to jump in with both feet on the caffeine , I am going to wean myself. I don't want to get a caffeine headache. :)

This last week, we have had several decisions to make. Well, not we, me. Going through the foster care licensing process, I was told that I needed to seek grief counseling for children that I have/can't have. Until I go to counseling, our file has been closed. Problem is, I don't know if I can't have my own children. I don't believe in grieving for children that I can't have, especially when I don't know if that is the case. So, I made the decision that we need to get fertility tests done. I am also going to start using ovulation strips to see if I am even ovulating. I know that I should have made this decision earlier, but I figure...better late than never. I know that I am getting older and getting pregnant is harder as I am getting older, but I don't want to say, I did not know it I could get pregnant or not. It is nice to know that I know someone else who is going through the same thing I am right now & has actually had the testing done. That way if...

As you know, Will & I have decided to become Foster parents. We started this process in late July - early August. It has been a long process for us too. The social workers have come to our home several times to talk about our separate childhoods, our relationship with our families, and our relationship with each other. Nothing is private. They ask about everything, and I mean EVERYTHING! Today we had a meeting with the social workers, per their request, to see what the next step was. I mean, I thought that they would be coming to talk about the home walk- thru and what to expect in the finalization process to becoming a licenced Foster Care home. Well, this meeting was not what I had expected. I found out that they want me to go to counseling for grief that, according to them, I have not dealt with. This is very frustrating to me. The grief that they feel I need to deal with is the fact that I can't have children of my own. Now, there has been NO medical diagnosis of this wh...

I have been doing a lot of thinking about choices. Some of my choices have been good, some not so good. Either way, I have to deal with those choices daily, as they have shaped me into the person I am today. They have also brought me to the place I am in my life. For that, I would not change for the world. You may be asking, "why are you blogging about choices?" I have chosen to blog about choices because it has come up a lot in conversation lately. It is interesting to have someone "blame" you because of the choices they made. How am I responsible for someone else's choices? It is easy to blame someone else for your choices & decisions. Especially when those decisions are "bad" ones. It is not my fault or the fault of my husband's that you have make these choices. If you would have chosen to get help from professionals, you may not be in the situation you are currently in. All I can say, is TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR CHOICES AND STOP BLAMING...