One Step Forward.....Two Steps Back

I am beyond frustrated! We have been trying to become foster parents for a while now. Our goal is to adopt a child or children out of the foster care system. I was initially excited about the organization that we choose to use to help us realize our dream. Now, I am frustrated by that organization. For those who don't know, my mother passed away in 1986. That is over 25 years ago and the organization is worried that I have "unresolved" grief because of her passing. They asked me to talk to a specific person about my grief and I did what they asked. Apparently that person was not good enough. I now have to go talk to someone else about my grief. Problem is that I do not have unresolved grief issues. I have moved on with my life. I guess the problem is that I haven't forgotten my mom and what she meant to me. Maybe that is what they want me to do. I am not sure.

They also wanted me to go to someone and grieve the fact that I am unable to have children of my own. The problem with that is....I have never been tested. So, I do not know if that is the case. I am just frustrated by the whole situation.

Because of this organization, I am loosing my desire to want to work with them. It seems that what ever I do or say is not good enough for them. I don't want to talk to them anymore. I am making my husband do the calling and talking. I mean every time I think we are taking a step forward, we are actually taking two steps back!!!